After years of knowing who i was and who i would become "when i grow up", i suddenly thought i'd challenge my own fate, try to escape the predestined route and be someone else. What I wrongly ignored, while choosing the new way, was that I've always actually liked the predestined route and it wasn't someone else who has decided it for me, it was indeed me knowing who i should become when i grow up.
I know what i am talking about up there in that paragraph, but i realise that probably this doesn't make much sense to anyone who may have stumbled across it/had a lazy day/randomly saw it or any other activity that may have led to reading this. Actually I mean a very particular thing by the previous paragraph: career choice. University course.
So, i did psychology with sociology for a year, and while that was nice, it never clicked exactly. It was only a 85% match. After a year of that and all the inevitable fun that university life carries with it, i made the right choice.
Media! With theology. The fighting atheist i am, the latter seemed a tad weird at first, but i figure it gives me the background knowledge and understanding of society (any society) as we have it now. It's proven to be amazing interesting so far with the added option of learning Arabic.
And it clicks, it is just right, it fits like a glove, and there's the amazing bonus of feeling that everything else i do is beneficial, it is right, it is good, like i've suddenly received a cheat sheet with all the right answers to a test. Only better, becaue this time, it's not cheating, it's about finally doing what you've know you should and will be doing since the age of 4 or 5.
The books i get, the people i meet, some new habits i've adopted, what i eat, how i've "redecorated" the room i live in... I feel more inspired to discover life, to learn new things, to challenge myself in a sane way. It all feels like having taken the right path.
And my point it- does it feel like that with everyone who likes their course/career, or am i unbelievably lucky??